tell me about it.

I know I should not be depress about it but these thoughts are killing me a way.
Well, term 3 started and tomorrow is week 3... Prom will be held in this term, as you know prom is like the must go thing in high school. It's important in my opinion. Anyway, Selina txted me and I heard about Arthur asked her to be her partner well, she rejected. Jacq has two people who asked her, she wonders. Well, is not like I'm keen but is just that I really think a partner is necessary at this kind of event... most importantly is that this is the last year for high school. 
to be honest, i really hope someone will ask me to go to the prom with him...

Just like what Shally mentioned the other night... "This is your high school, you should be having a boyfriend and someone to be together with not with us." Well, that's true but no guys will like a girl who is fat, dumb, ugly and with single eye lids. no one will want to have someone who is that imperfect. I mean it is okay to be imperfect but sometimes what you accept is not what other people will accept. they wont accept who you are even though you're being who you are suppose to be.

the society tells the truth and we are the ones who make decision on what we want to believe in.



J.

Term 3 starts.

Well, the title said it all.
the 16th of July and term 3 started.

First thing got into photography class, a response from Mr.B was in 8 weeks time you should have at least 2 boards done. at that moment i really wanted to die. I mean i started my photo shoot but those photos werent what ive expected i mean i need something more strong and interesting to look to. I need camera on me every moment so I can capture what i wanted. but no. Im too fcking lazy to even move and carry my camera.
it sucks and i tell u is never too late to start working out and get your motivation ready.

It's time to get it on. Got into every class and every single teacher told me the same thing... is term 3 the term where everyone is a mess and no one can have a break. week 9 is mocks and fml. i dont think i've learned anything from the las ttwo terms.
I need revision.
I need more time.
I need motivation most importantly.




J.

this is just life.

A life is where you live and be who you really are. No one was born to please someone else. I mean I get it at some point people walk into your life and leave like nothing has ever happened. Wearing a mask to live up a life sucks. That's pretty much of a life.

I've been living in this world for almost 18 years now and yes. often people ask dont you want somebody to be around u like your family and friends. In fact, sometimes i just wish there's this someone who will be around me and stay. Telling everyone im not desperate is a lie. I am... i need a guy who i can cuddle with and talk to and mayb to be with. 

I am not pretty, am lazy, am not skinny like any other girls out there and am not jst some girls who seek attention. I am who I am and I've been carrying a baggage around with masks in it. Now i really want to live up my life and be who I really am. 

Hopefully, everything is fine.

J.